Happy Mothers Day Sissy

I miss you sissy- Happy Mothers Day, I love you ! Not a second goes by that you are not in my thoughts. This is so very hard, I wish it never happened, I wish we could go back in time. I know I cant, I wish I was stronger but Im NOT. I am dying inside sis, I miss you terribly!

All mylove always,
Your big sister

Just thinking about you...
xoxoxo Tammy.

I cant believe its almost been a month

Man sis, Its so hard to believe it will be one month tomorrow at 8:13 AM - Everyone keeps saying its gets easier in time- I dont feel that, the longer its getting the harder it is - The shock has worn off and reality is setting in - Your really gone, my little sister is dead, at times I get so angry at you, Why didnt you wear your seatbelt, I have been ready the statistic of car accidents and the fatalities, your were 68% in greater risk to die by not wearing it, I know its not doing me any good to try and analize it, but its what I do, I lissen to your voicemail over and over and over again, only to almost pretend we are having a conversation, really how dumb and I, I lay in bed and can hear brother telling that you died over and over again, I have guilt because mom called and I didnt answer and brother called and I didnt I was playing a game with Jace at a birthday party, I called back Cody and he told me, I said " stephanie who"? really thats what I said. I feel so bad for mom, having your daughter and not being able to get ahold of you, she called a hundred times, she started to have this horrible feeling and at 1:21PM the police showed up and asked if she knew Stephanie Perrenoud, Mom said I dont want to answer that, Then they told her and she told then you dont have the right stephanie she doesnt drive a green saturn ( you were in your inlaws car ) - I just keep playing it out over in my head, its almost making me crazy - Well I just wanted to say I love you wherever you are.
Your sister,
Nina

You have one amazing family here who miss you and love you so much. Your sister is amazing and you know how I felt about her for so long and I am so sorry I did. I wish I could take it all back. I love you and please forgive me for everything please. Will you do me a favor and watch over her, cody and mom please, they need you more than anything cuz. I LOVE YOU FOREVER.

I love you Stephanie L. Anderson Pernewnew - I am going to miss you more then words can ever say - Thank you for giving me the honor for 29 years 3 m

Death is nothing at all

I have only slipped away into the next room

I am I and you are you

Whatever we were to each other

That we are still

Call me by my old familiar name

Speak to me in the easy way you always used

Put no difference into your tone

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow

Laugh as we always laughed

At the littl...e jokes we always enjoyed together

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was

Let it be spoken without effort

Without the ghost of a shadow in it

Life means all that it ever meant

It is the same as it ever was

There is absolute unbroken continuity

What is death but a negligible accident?

Why should I be out of mind

Because I am out of sight?

I am waiting for you for an interval

Somewhere very near

Just around the corner

All is well.

Nothing is past; nothing is lost

One brief moment and all will be as it was before

How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

Another Day

Sissy, today has been really hard, I dont know if reality is setting in. This pain is truly unbarable- I miss you so much, I have been thinking of so many memories today and watching home video- Oh my god you have the best funniest laugh ever, how can I never hear that again. I want this to be a dream. I want this to be over sissy - I dont know what I believe and right now I have so much hate in me - Why you? why now? Why is this plan everyone keeps talking about. I dont get it. Why do you visit other people but wont come see me, I need you sissy, I need you bad. I love you and I am so sorry you left this earth. I love you sis - goodnight sweetheart. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight. It hasnt happened yet. I miss you and I will miss you forever my little lady.

Your Big sistet
Nina

My Little Girl

Gotta hold on easy as I let you go
Gonna tell you how much I love you
Though you think you already know
I remember I thought you looked like an angel wrapped in pink so soft and warm
You've had me wrapped around your finger since the day you were born

You beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road that'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl

When you were in trouble that crooked little smile could melt my heart of stone
Now look at you, I've turned around and you've almost grown
Sometimes you're asleep I whisper "I Love You" in the moonlight at your door
As I walk away, I hear you say, "Mommy Love You More"

Your beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road that'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl

Someday, some boy will come and ask me for your hand
But I won't say "yes" to him unless I know, he's the half
That makes you whole, he has a poet's soul, and the heart of a man's man
I know he'll say that he's in love
But between you and me
He won't be good enough

Your beautiful baby from the outside in
Chase your dreams but always know the road that'll lead you home again
Go on, take on this whole world
But to me you know you'll always be, my little girl